And yet this event has also brought about hardships, while pale in comparison to the alternative outcome, these hardships truly have tested my beliefs and character. And I’m not ashamed to admit that I have failed a couple of these tests. One I failed because of my naïve beliefs and one from a purely selfish reasons. While both have produced a void which may never be healed they have also taught me a valuable lesson.
I have also seen many a victory throughout 2007. First and foremost, I am alive. There can be no greater victory any thought conscious being can ever be awarded. To rise each day and to bed down each night is truly a victory we take for granted. I, for one, do not take this victory for granted. I am witnessing my son maturing into a young man. And while the trials and tribulations raising a child can bring, there are no words for the overwhelming pride one is consumed with on a daily basis. For an 11 year old boy, he has been my crutch at times throughout the year. And for this I am thankful.
I have also made many a new friendship and rekindled friendships from years gone by. Whether the friendship is real life or a virtual person, the friendship is important nonetheless. And just recently a few of those virtual friendships have become real life. And for that I am truly blessed. These friends have blessed me with daily conversations that while some will debate they are only words, those words somehow bring about a comfort. A comfort of knowing that no matter what hand life deals me, I can always find emotions, resolutin and understanding within their words. People can read words and understand the content, but for a person to read and understand the person is a gift.
I have started a journey down a path to which I do not know where it leads. And for those who know me, this is a very unlikely trait for me. But over the past few months, a soulful yearning is pressing me to discover myself and reenergize my spirit. I have embraced this journey and am willingly walking this path. And during this journey it was brought to my attention that Dazed and Confuzed (dazdnconfzd in chats) was no longer equivalent to my personality. So after much debate, I am changing my chat screen login to AmazdnDazd, or Amazed and Dazed. I won’t be changing the name of this blog or anything already associated with Dazed and Confuzed. That would lead to mass confusion and that’s not my goal to achieve during my journey. However, you may see a shift in the polarity of my universe. A shift has already begun as some long time readers and friends have hopefully seen. The newer friends and readers will begin to notice as the year of 2008 progresses.
And as tradition here at Dazd Central, I am doing some housecleaning. Many have desecrated and dishonored the Golden Rule: Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. And so it shall be written and declared on this day, December 28th of the year 2007 that those who wish to be treated like royalty, friends and family shall reciprocate lest ye be banished from my kingdom.
And others have desecrated the Ten Commandments. I am lenient on many subjects and levels of these commandments. But there is one in particular that remains steadfast within my morals and practices. And so it shall be written and declared on this day, December 28th of the year 2007 that those who wish to be treated like family and friends shall adhere to these commandments lest ye be banished from my kingdom.
Henceforth and forevermore, those privileged to be within my circle of trust shall remain as given by these rules declared on this day, December 28th of the year 2007.
There is so much good in the worst of us,
And so much bad in the best of us,
That it hardly becomes any of us
To talk about the rest of us.
~Edward Wallis Hoch
And don’t worry dear friends and readers, if you’re reading this you shall remain apart of my kingdom, unless you give me a reason! lol
I think over again my small adventures.
Those small ones that seemed so big.
For all the vital things
I had to get and to reach.
And yet there is only one great thing.
The only thing.
To live to see the great day that dawns
And the light that fulfills the world.